Friday, February 25, 2011

现在的心情不是一般的差,付出的,默默付出的,别人会懂吗?不会。你在面前坏样,背后对他好,他不会懂得。所以,不需要对任何一个人好。一定要每次说出口,我做了什么什么,才会得到回报吗?我不是想得到什么,至少对我好些,怎么对我比我没付出时的差?付出是白的,这点,我应该老早就明白的。很想飙粗口,现在的我很讨厌别人,你别惹我,拜托!

以后,读大学,尽量少回家吧,那时或许他们才会察觉我做的,还有我的存在性。叫我回,我也不会再回了,我懒。不想争什么,我争不起。期待得越大,失望也会越大。因为现在生活没有什么特别的,期望都寄托在家人身上,结果下场就是如期不堪。可悲。哈哈哈。

抒发完毕

Friday, February 18, 2011

[MV HD] IU - The story only I didn't know [english subs+romanization+han...



A very nice song , You should had listen to it.
It is sad, sad till you feel heart tore apart and keep sad.
If you finding song that can moved you , I think this will be a great choice.

She said, no such thing as good breakup, and she felt vaguely hurt.
She got a wound that can't heal itself...
which truly touched me at this moment.

Strongly recommend...
hwaiting~ IU


end

End
This suppose to be the end

For once someone tell me that,
Stop,
is to prepare yourself,
End,
is to have a better start...

should this follow this rules too?
I hope for a better start...
not the kind of start u might think...
It just I wish i can lead a brand new life
without u without him and without heSSSSS
I want to enjoy not to like anyone
but being liiked...? i duno..

I am not dumb child that need to touch hot kettle
many many times to know that we cant touch
Instead, one time enough...
I scare of hot kettle ad..
truly scare,
Scare till i darent use kettle as i know i might
accidentally touch the hot surface if i had used it

Not using kettle then i wont have this worry
I know well that not using it mean
I can never drink boiled water ,
cant make hot chocolate...
But i scare that painful touch..

Maybe one day,
I might try my best to use the kettle
to enlighten my life.
But it definitely not now...
trauma isnt that easy to get rid of.

I guess. it gonna take a long time
So, kettle or future kettles..
please keep a distance from me
Im not worth your wait...
You might never be used till the end of your waranty..

恐怖

恐怖,
我比你更切身体会到自己的恐怖之处
讨厌自己那么样,
讨厌到你无法相信。
什么时候开始,我变成那怪兽,
我自己也不晓得了。

是谁把我变成恐怖的人?
我不想记得那些事,但是
因为太伤心了,忘不了。
不敢说出来,心中闷闷的
就这样,记了下来。

自己也被恐怖的执著吓着,
谢谢你的明言,
让我更肯定自己有点恐怖。

放心吧,恐怖的是那段时间
那段黑暗,差点吞噬我,
现在我好多了,
大家都说我是开朗的嘛~
对阿对阿,我现在不敢说我很好,
但是,我会很好。

最后一次掉泪,这将会是。
不会再有下次,我保证。


岁月难得沉默秋风厌倦漂泊
夕阳赖着不走挂在墙头舍不得我
昔日伊人耳边话已和潮声向东流
再回首往事也随枫叶一片片落
爱已走到尽头恨也放弃承诺
命运自认幽默想法太多由不得我
壮志凌云几分愁知己难逢几人留
再回首却闻笑传醉梦中

笑叹词穷古痴今狂终成空
刀钝刃乏恩断义绝梦方破
路荒已叹饱览足迹没人懂
多年望眼欲穿过红尘滚滚我没看透
自嘲墨尽千情万怨已皆愁
曲终人散发花鬓白红颜殁
烛残未觉与日争辉图消瘦
当泪干血隐狂涌白雪纷飞都成空





Wednesday, February 2, 2011

breathless....

U made me breathless
U made me speechless
U always have the power to made my mouth curve down
U lead me to the heaven and drag me to the hell

I'm really tired, U know?
I tried my best not to hurt U
tried to assist U and be your best friend
and so far i think i did my best but
It's too heavy for me to carry on this task
In the end i will be the pity one that cry
sadly, in sorrow ,lonely in the corner...
Will you allow me to fire myself?

Should had listen to U
Should had learnt her
Should had treat u like nothing
Should had end the friendship....
Should had never know you
Will now be late?
To change everything over?

There are things in this world,
U will be in happiness if
U don't know them,
N u r one of those to me...

I know U will live well with' me
cause i know u will...
I really don't need sorry from U
that just made me feel i'm more pity
Don't try to superimpose me to those
sad movie main character

Till now still like you is my fault
Till now still think of you made myself sound pity
Till now still din hate you is out of people expectation...
Don't worry ^^
I will figure out a way to forget you by myself from now
love to use ^^ cause it remind me about u
but now i will try to limit this usage..

I wont be your burden
If U think i'm pity,
If u think u owned me too much,
If U feel sorry to me
If u don't want to my kindness as granted,
If U want to repay me
If u wanna help me
Then just act like the mermaid princess..

Once U made me feel like im mermaid princess
U want me to disappear like bubbles...
This time I don't want to become mermaid princess
Can U bless the prince and the neighbour kingdom princess?
silently diminish like bubble?